It has been a long time since I even attempted something like this. I was too tired, too busy, what have you. Meanwhile there are all these thoughts I never write down. All these memories I am afraid I might forget if I don't preserve them somehow. So, an attempt to write things down has begun anew.
My life is constantly going, constantly changing. For better sometimes, for worse others. My son has grown into a wonderful little boy. He is smart, funny, and to me at least, handsome. He is not the little baby we brought home four years ago, he's grown into so much more.
My husband and I are still happily married. I cannot say the same for a great many people I know. It makes me sad for them, but appreciative of what I have at the same time. We are busy with school, life, friends, and of course our son. But we still make time for one another. It is good.
We are expecting. I am not sure how many people really feel about this. But I suspect that there are more than enough negative thoughts on it. Because of our financial situation and my health. I can understand the worries, but a child is a joyous occasion. If people cannot be positive, or at the very least NOT negative about it, then I don't want them around. I just won't have it. This baby is WANTED and this baby is LOVED. Period. The reactions and feelings of my husband, son and self are the only ones that play into this family.
I have wanted to begin writing again, but I have just been too tired. Homework and early pregnancy combined can sometimes cause my brain to just shut off. I may attempt to be creative this summer when I have time off. Or I may just spend the summer in my air conditioned room watching movies and coloring with my beautiful son. Either way it is a win.
Gaming...well I still like to game. I am enjoying Sam's game very much. I quit one someone else was running that I really didn't like. We are having new ones start this summer. But as I told the group my participation depends on how I feel. I may have to rest a great deal. I would love to run my game again, I just have not been able to get the work done on it that it requires. I won't let down my players by running a half assed game.
For now, I close hoping I can update this weekly, or as close to. Maybe more often depending. Even if no one reads it, I have a place where I can ramble and share. Therapeutic, don't you think?
